In the clips released so far, Spears looks back on her preteen days on “The Mickey Mouse Club” — recalling a truth-or-dare kiss with fellow cast member Timberlake — and about being cast in the main role. opposite Ryan Gosling in “The Notebook,” a role that ultimately went to Rachel McAdams.
She recalls growing up with parents she would later criticize for exerting too much control over her life, recounting how her mother, Lynne Spears, let her drink cocktails when she was in eighth grade. And she discusses the constant pressures surrounding her body, writing how, during the years of conservatorship, her father told her “repeatedly” that she “looked fat and that I was going to have to do something about it “.
“I’ve been looked at up and down, people told me what they think of my body, since I was a teenager,” one excerpt reads. “Shaving my head and acting out were my ways of pushing back. But under the tutelage, I was made to understand that those days were now over. I had to let my hair grow and get back into shape. I had to go to bed early and take the medicine they told me to take.
Spears had privately lobbied for years to end the conservatorship, but she left no doubt about her position in 2021, when she told a Los Angeles judge that the arrangement was “abusive,” claiming she was forced to work when she didn’t. she wanted and was prevented from removing her contraceptive device even though she wanted to have more children. Her father has long maintained that the guardianship was always intended to protect his daughter from exploitation.
The memoir fiercely rejects the idea that the guardianship was for her own good: she writes, according to one excerpt, that this arrangement made her a sort of “robot child,” a shadow of herself , claiming that male artists had mismanaged their money and faced substance abuse issues without being treated like she had.
“There was no way I could behave like an adult, since they didn’t treat me like an adult, so I regressed and acted like a little girl,” one of the excerpts says, “but then my adult me was coming back. – only my world didn’t allow me to be an adult.